Blog Friday 3rd December 2010 – Snow, -20˚C, alot of it! and … what not!

Well its definitely been a while since my last blog hasn’t it, but if I’m been perfectly honest, we’ve reached that stage of the year where nothing kinda happens until the 25th, then kaboom, its a new year!
I’d be lying if somethings haven’t happened recently and I’d also be lying if I was to include them all in this public blog, but hey, read on and you’ll find out.

Snow!
This week has been College-less, nearly. Well basically last weekend came this incredible mass of snow, which unfortunately wasn’t enough to stop our Monday of College, even though there were barely anyone here, but then it kept going and snow it definitely has, plus record temperatures overtaking -20˚C which is just ridiculous man, ouch! This did of course result in multiple sledging visits through the snow, and a surprising number of trips to Grandad Lee’s bar as it were. Of course I’m talking in past tense, it still is very cold outside and the surface is white, so who knows. I was actually very glad actually, for some reason since coming back from the holidays I just haven’t been the same me, less willing and what not, hopefully a break will bring back that … I dunno, umf! Although it hasn’t been that bad going to Grandad Lee’s drunken duck, apart from the fact its always absolutely freezing down there anyway, even with what is lets face it a useless radiator. Been playing on the Wii which has actually been pretty fun, had a great laugh last night as well with Caddy, Grandad and eventually Kai, some disagreements put the mood down for a minute, but when Kai arrived, we were back!

Mini Blogs
I’ve decided that every Friday, literally, I’ve to write a little mini-blog, bought time this thing had a schedule, of course if something does happens and the keys keep typing for a long time then they’ll be a proper blog, so there you go, kinda always a blog every week!

MONKEYS!!! About!
No one likes PG Tips, or did like ITV Digital, but you’ve got to love the monkey. So I’m following MONKEY on his adventures, of course this is FaceBook friends of me only. I may … only may, post these on a public mannor, but currently are available through my FaceBook page. Follow the adventures of MONKEY on BookFace friends.

Meet up with an old friend!
I’ve no idea if I mentioned this before, and for the love of god I’m not going back to check now, but I recently, which is a month ago, got a request on BookFace from what we’re going to call on this blog D (thats not her name, I just don’t know if she’s mind been mentioned), who is the sister of James H, ya know, James, that guy who used to come around when Aaron used to … never mind. Anyway Di… D, was his sister and to be honest pretty awesome back in the day, of course being her brothers friend kinda meant we didn’t become that close of friends, and the fact I actually had a crush on her at the time probably didn’t help, especially as this was the time of the whole “Mary” fiasco. Anyway, we had some very … interesting chats on FaceBook, which led to texts, then last week actually meeting up in person. Now, because I’m a man, I did some things stupidly, like telling her I actually really “like” her few days before actually meeting up, although she seemed to respond rather well to that, which was a bit of a shock.
Anyway, we met up and due to my previous outburst of loveness, it kinda left the first few hours and minutes rather awkward, but when reality struck home that I was in all fairness with an absolutely beautiful women who chose to turn up to see me, ya know you’ve kinda of got to just roll with it man. We actually had quite a laugh, I enjoyed myself, telling if she did was many times rather debatable, you can never tell with women. Well basically I told her that I love her, which I really do, and ya know, well, she didn’t leave put it that way.
What I love about when we met up was, the entire snow weather didn’t occur until that day had ended and we’d said buy, even the weather wants us to be in a relationship, I sure hope so. Although she’s been pretty quiet since then so I’m still kinda on the fence on whether it all went as well as it seemed, although I know she’s got quite the troubles of her own, which I’m definitely not going to go in here! But hey, if she’s looking for someone who loves her, and will support her through any lows, me’s ya man!

I’m really loving Blur right now!
Now seen as age restricted me from been a pure Blur fan, kinda because Leisure album came out before I did, if you know what I mean …. wow that was a bit nasty. But seriously after getting all 5 Blur albums, and with rumours of a 2011 project, I’m loving it, in comparison with Oasis, Blur are just gods. Seriously though, if you want cheering up listen to a bit of Blur, well, except Think Tank, thats the lovey dovey depressing one!

Christmas Songs 2010
This list will probably be updated later, but here are all NEW Christmas Songs that have arrived this year!
COLDPLAY – Christmas Lights
HURTS – All I Want For Christmas Is New Year’s Day
MARIAH CAREY – Oh Santa
This list is sure to grow. I’ll be adding our classic collection of Christmas songs soon to the RKUK Media, and all Christmas songs on RKUK Media are available here!

RANDOM SIDENOTE: Does anyone spell Grandad correctly, seriously you’re supposed to spell it Granddad!

Well thats all folks, E-Ya Later

Ben

http://rkukmedia.co.uk

Apple release iOS 4.2 – Is It Worth It For iPhone?

Apple have released (today) iOS 4.2 for iPhone and iPad. Now whilst the update boasts many new updates to the amazingment that is the iPhone operating system, all upgrades seem to be for the iPad, so whats in it for the iPhone, well, lets see.

Find My iPhone!

If you’ve any reason to get iOS 4.2 then this is it. The popular MobileMe feature Find My iPhone is now free for all users, how about that! So, now you use all the features of Find My iPhone. Click relevant links for Information on how to activate it for iPhone, iPod Touch and iPad.

Messaging with MORE Text Tones!

The only thing that lets me down about this is you can’t add your own text ringtones like you can with Calls, but you now have an extra 17 new text tones, which you can use or use a specific one for a certain contact like you could with Calls.

Find Text on Web Pages!

Took me a while to figure out how to do this, but you can now search for text within a web page, simply by typing in the Google/Yahoo/Bing search box and it will have a bottom menu for “On this page”. Not bad.

AirPrint

First things first with AirPrint. AirPrint is really the first time the iPhone can actually print things off, so far I’ve only found it in Safari, but on an iPad you can use it for iWork obviously.

AirPlay

Sticking with air with AirPlay. AirPlay allows you to play music via iTunes libraries of shared devices, the device this has always been awaited for is the Apple TV. Basically share music around and control it using your iOS device.

Notes has 3 Optional Fonts Now!

I don’t know what people have against Marker Felt font especially for notes! But anyway, if you fancy a change then you can now switch to either Chalkboard (which is autoset when you upgrade), Helvetica and old favourite Marker Felt.

So, also included is more Enterprise support and some more languages. Think I listed those from YEYYY to triff order.

One thing to keep in mind if you’re an iPhone 3G owner is that iOS 4.2 is more than likely going to be the last version of iOS to be supported on your phone, but many have said performance is massively improved, although if you’re still not happy with iOS4 on your 3G, click here to resolve all your problems.

Ning introduces All-New Future Plans, but free users will pay for it, literally!

NING, since starting out in 2004, is the best way for anyone to get a full featured website that literally does anything, now with integration with Flickr, FaceBook and Twitter as well as FaceBook-like social network features plus the abilities to add all sources of media content by uploading or embed as well as blogs and events, but the real buzz about NING is that this service has started at since launch in ’04 as completely free! Well, unfortunately for those paying any less than nothing for their network will soon either have to or say bye bye to their network!

Advantages of NING’s new move!
NING have introduced 3 plans, which are 3 of the 4 options all “free” members have in July to make the decision in taking those are;
(Unfortunately for all these, only US dollar prices have been announced!)

NING Mini
NING Mini is the basic of the basic packages, whilst only coming in at a mere $2.95/month, which isn’t a half bad price to pay, plus NING also offer for all packages a per year, which in this case is $19.95, saving you 44% of the price you would be paying per month throughout a 12 month period, which is nice.
What isn’t nice is you will lose things, what? Well here is a section we’ll be adding to all these, what you’ll lose!

You will lose (from Free NING Services)
-Members limited to 150
-Video and music uploads
-All current added music and video(s), whether uploaded or embedded
-Chat
-Events
-Groups
-Notes and Pages
-NING Apps
-Analytics Box
-FaceBook and Twitter integration
-Custom CSS in Appearance options
-Feature controls

You will gain (from Free NING Services)
-Ad Free, plus ability to add you own ads and make money from your website.
-Custom Network ID (Whatever that is)
-Member Statistics (NING say this is coming soon)

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NING Plus
NING Plus is the middle plan, and to be frank probably the most popular choice, it offers more or less what you’ve got now plus, based on how much the extra you get was before a very good deal indeed. Whilst NING Plus does cost the same as a year of NING Mini, the differences is large. As mentioned its $19.95/month, or like with Mini you can get it for a year at $199.95, saving 16%, not as much, but hey, a saving!

You will lose (from Free NING Services)
-Abillity to upload music and videos (Embed feature/MP3 link remain) (Current videos remain)

You will gain (from Free NING Services)
-Unlimited members (300 in free, varied on content)
-10GB Storage (over the 1GB)
-100GB Bandwidth
-Domain Mapping, allowing you to use your own Domain, previously $5/month for just that!
-Invite pages from Network Creator and Members
-Branded badges
-Ad Free, plus ability to add you own ads and make money from your website.
-Remove NING branding and Links
-Now up to 25 Text Boxes on Homepage
-Now up to 25 RSS Feeds on Homepage
-Textbooks in Header and Footer (NING say this is coming soon)
-Member Statistics (NING say this is coming soon)
-Advanced Member Controls (NING say this is coming soon)
-NING Help Center Support

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NING Pro
NING Pro is the daddy pack of the three, the literally all-in-one! Like all-in-one packages its not cheap, at $49.95/month or $499.95/month, which wooptydu saves you 17%, which I suppose will add up.

You will lose (from Free NING Services)
Nothing, win win, this one!

You will gain (from Free NING Services)
-Unlimited members (300 in free, varied on content)
-20GB Storage + upgrade (over the 1GB on the free)
-200GB Bandwidth + upgrade
-Domain Mapping, allowing you to use your own Domain, previously $5/month for just that!
-Invite pages from Network Creator and Members
-Branded badges
-Ad Free, plus ability to add you own ads and make money from your website.
-Remove NING branding and Links
-Language Editor
-Now up to 25 Text Boxes on Homepage
-Now up to 25 RSS Feeds on Homepage
-Textbooks in Header and Footer (NING say this is coming soon)
-Member Statistics (NING say this is coming soon)
-API Access (NING say this is coming soon)
-Advanced Member Controls (NING say this is coming soon)
-NING Premium Support
(just to mention all content currently on your site will be unchanged with the addition of these features, including video and audio uploading, which soon will be HD video)

NING have said about all prices that they are one-time annual pricing!

Full information on all plans here!

Say goodbye to NING!
Yeah, sorry to be so blunt, but that really is the only other option, the only free option. So, if anything its worth going for a pay option just to keep the site you’ve been working on all this time, unfortunately you will have really only the choice of NING Plus or Pro to keep all current content on your website, but suppose if you care about your site enough you’ll do it, plus if your site is popular enough you could benefit from the ad earning options.

April 2010 – Apple Updates MacBook Pro Specs, but that’s about it.

Apple today updated the specs on the MacBook Pro line-up, the 13, 15 and 17 inch models all got a spec update which should keep them up to date for the next few months or so. The update includes, as expected, Intel’s new mobile Core i5 and i7 chips as well as some updated NVidia graphics including the NVidia GeForce GT 330M, which, according to NVidia is the next up from the NVidia GeForce 9400M that we’ve seen in more or less all but the Mac Pro for basic graphic configuration. Like the 9400M, the 330M supports up to 256MB of shared graphics on a 2.4GHz system, but can go up to 512MB on a system supporting speeds above 2.66Ghz.

13″ MacBook Pro

If we’re all been perfectly honest, if you’ve recently bought a 13″ MacBook Pro, as in last week for example, I wouldn’t be so disappointed, not much has changed.

The 13″ MacBook Pro is the only MacBook Pro not to feature any of Intel’s new processors, as in the i5 or i7, the MacBook Pro 13″ now comes with either a 2.4GHz or a 2.66Ghz Intel Core 2 Duo.

The 13″ MacBook Pro can be upped to 2.66Ghz Intel Core 2 Duo, with now up to 8GB DDR3 RAM (2 RAM slots) and if you more or less want to double the price of the MacBook Pro you can opt for a 512GB SSD, or save more than a grand and go for a 500GB HDD.

Apple are also promising now up to a 10 hour battery from the 13″ MacBook Pro, although the sacrifice of no replaceable battery.

15″ MacBook Pro

The 15″ MacBook Pro has 3 standalone options, 2 in which contain Intel’s Core i5 chip, the top standalone config has the i7. The first model has a 2.4GHz i5 chip with 4GB DDR3 RAM, which can be upped to 8GB DDR3. Like the 13″ you can also double the price by having the option of a new 512GB SSD, or 500GB HDD which unlike the 13″ MacBook Pro you have the option of 5200RPM of 7200RPM.

One rather interesting feature of the 15″ MacBook Pro is you have the option on getting the default Glossy display, but if you want to pay a bit more you can get a “High Res Glossy Widescreen Display”, we’re not quite sure what the difference is between both, but seems odd. And the price has gone up for the Anti-Glare option, now a massive £120 extra, which is actually rather annoying as the extra price is getting ridiculous.

The second option features the same specs, but with a 2.53GHz Intel i5 with the same integrated NVidia GeForce GT 330M as the 13″ MacBook Pro and the 2.4GHz 15″ model.

The last “top” option for the 15″ MacBook Pro goes all out, with a 2.66Ghz Core i7 chip and thanks to the processor spec the GeForce GT 330M will power at 512MB. We’re not sure how using the same chip for graphics is going to be based on performance but we’ll see.

And, whats this we see, the return of Intel Graphics? Intel HD graphics as they are known as are also in the 15″ MacBook Pro supporting the same graphics specs as the NVidia but shared with main memory … yeah I know, confusing.

17″ MacBook Pro

The 17″ MacBook Pro has just one base spec which includes a 2.53GHz Intel Core i5 or a Intel Core i7 at 2.66Ghz. The 17″ also features the up to 8GB of DDR3 RAM, the same options for Hard Drives, up to 500GB HDD (5200RPM or 7200RPM) and up to 512GB SSD. The 17″ MacBook Pro features the NVidia GeForce 330M which supports 512MB of graphics at 2.66GHz config, and 256MB on 2.53GHz, as well as Intel HD graphics shared with the main memory at 256MB.

Overview

Definitely an interesting update especially with the NVidia 330M graphics on all models and the difference in graphics performance based on Intel graphics. We’ll have to see how these go down the lines. All models of the new MacBook Pros are available right now from Apple’s online store. But all-in-all, we still have no sign of Blu-Ray on Macs, maybe next time eh!

Is the iPhone 3GS worth it for current iPhone or iPhone 3G users?


(Image showing original iPhone (left) and the iPhone 3G black back)

Now remember back, the release of the first iPhone available in 4GB and 8GB models, a touch screen iPod, a revolutionary internet device and a phone, actually more-or-less how Steve Jobs announced it, along with iPhone Software 1.0. But to be honest that was it, it was basically a touch-screen phone. The only appearance difference with the iPhone 3G was a metallic back!

In 2008 it was revised to an iPhone 3G, whilst the original iPhone had EDGE, 3G was the biggest requested feature on the original iPhone and it was delivered, but the biggest thing about the iPhone 3G was actually from the iPhone Software 2.0. With it came the App Store, probably the biggest and most noticed feature, but this wasn’t an iPhone 3G feature, it was really only a 2.0 software upgrade and the original iPhone can use the App Store like the 3G just the same and just as good and just as well. The iPhone 3G had exactly the same features as the original iPhone plus 3G and a built in GPS, in fact these were the only new hardware features of the iPhone 3G, so if you think about it the iPhone 3G didn’t really have much new features, oh and now a plastic back and available in 8GB and 16GB.

In 2009, ie this year, it was time for another revision and it was always gonna be tough to release something better than the App Store, and obviously they couldn’t. But they did introduce both the new iPhone 3.0 and the iPhone 3GS, the topic of this blog. The hardware improvements again were pretty bleak, now a 3MPXL camera rather than a 2, support for the new 3G standard at 7.1 Megabits, a built in compass if that’s worth having, although in the Maps application it turns to reflect which way to north your standing. But you know what, that’s it, it even has exactly the same design. Once again, it’s the iPhone Software 3.0 that releases all the features, over 100+ new features including MMS (iPhone 3G and 3GS only), Copy+Paste, Spotlight search, Landscape, Voice memos, improved Calendar, Movies/Tv Shows and more now available through Mobile iTunes, Enhanced Stocks, better and faster Safari, Internet Tethering, stereo Bluetooth (for iPhone 3G and 3GS only), auto Wi-Fi login, Sync Notes, improved parental controls, iTunes Store Account add etc, YouTube accounts, shake to shuffle iPod, 40+ more languages, MobileMe features including Remote Wipe, Peer-to-Peer gaming and more! So, it’s a massive upgrade from 2.0, but these are available on all current iPhones*, so how can the new iPhone be worth it. Well, the fact is it’s not, the only features of the new iPhone are possible on other iPhones, let me explain. Video Capture, one feature boasted on about the new iPhone 3GS, but did I hear them mention a new API was launched for the App Store apps, so basically it could be added to the iPhone/iPhone 3G easily. Compass, OK it’s good for Maps, and their is an app exclusively for compass fans out their, yes you their sir. The only two feature the iPhone 3GS is worth it for you is if you require 32GB of memory, or in need of the faster processor, which to me is the only big feature hardware wise on the new iPhone 3GS.
You can still purchase an iPhone 3G, including the 16GB iPhone 3G until the iPhone 3GS is released, so if you want it cheaper hurry up. The 8GB iPhone 3G will continue to be available when the 3GS is out, and then the 16 and the new 32GB iPhone 3GS will be on sale.

New iPhone users
If you haven’t purchased any iPhone yet, the yes the iPhone 3GS will still be possibly the best mobile purchase you’ve made in your life, this blog is not ment to put you off the iPhone in anyway.
If you recently purchased an iPhone 3G, theirs no big reason to think about forking out alot more to get an iPhone 3GS, thats what I’m talking about in this blog.

*MMS and stereo Bluetooth is not available on original iPhones.

Is the Nintendo DSi Worth It?

Only a few weeks now since Nintendo started shipping whats called the Nintendo DSi, the latest update to the DS series, but is that all it is, just an update, if you compare it with the PSP, many feel the PSP 3000 is just a design upgrade and no real change to even the original one, is this the same with the DSi.
Well, I think the best way to look into this is to start by checking out the DSi’s offerings compared with, the DS Lite, which I happen to own in white, still quite annoyed that christmas when the black was out of stock, grr.

Above is a picture of the side of a blue DSi box. Basically everything new is listed here. So let’s run through this new features.
1. You can listen to music and play games through the built in SD card slot! And! You can purchase an add-on for the current DS models to do exactly the same, it’s £30, but that’s alot less than the DSi if that’s all your getting it for.
2. Browse the internet! Just to point out that when you purchase a DSi it doesn’t actually come with a web browser, you’ve actually to download one from the DSi Store, more on that in the 3. By the way, if your not impressed with browsing on the PSP, don’t expect any more from this really!
3. Download apps and more through the DSi Store! This is probably the big one, the DSi Store, speculations are going round that this is Nintendo’s counter to Apple’s App Store, although baring mind the Wii Store was around before the App Store, and this to most including me is Nintendo’s version of it on the DSi. So, the DSi Store is probably is yes a reason to get the DSi, although many could argue you could just get some roms on that magic £30 card thingy!
4. Two built in Cameras! I can see this being integrated in some purvey way with Nintendogs, but until games come out that people will actually want that use the cameras, no to that one. Although their are some quite funky pointless editing preferences built in.
5. Well, there is no 5, so apart from a mini mini mini processor bump, probably for the camera and internet, the DSi doesn’t have much to tell me to grab one, plus if you wait and get one later, it’ll be cheaper, but remember to keep your old DS for GameBoy games, cos some idiot thought, “y know what, we don’t need GBA anymore”, so bad for guitar hero eh!

Overall, the DSi to me is quite a pointless updated version of something that’s still OK, removing the GBA is something thats gonna take sometime to get over, unless you can add .GBA files in the card reader.

What’s your thought’s, comment and let me know below.

Blog Wednesday 7th May 2008

If anyone is a fan of the Keane font that was exclusively used on the UTIS album and singles, RKUK have a download link on MP3ME section, also, Nathan I haven’t forgotton, Elvis will be put on, I’ve been given a list and they will be added! Today I swept through an IT exam, Mr B still not here in resistant, come on only one more resistant this week, Mr B, please don’t come! I enjoyed a sing-a-long to scissor sisters in IT as well, probably the best lesson of the day really seen as its the only lesson I actually did something or could be assed doing somthing in!
Year 11s had a bit of an unexpected accembly last lesson, rumors were spurring claiming it was our last day and guess what, typical rumor, NO!!!
Well thats it, E-Ya Later

Ben

http://rkukonline.ds4a.com

Blog Friday 2nd May 2008

I can’t believe people are still going on about Chris’ ordeal yesterday, unbelievable “I know broadband for £6.99 a month” sorry couldn’t resist! Elsewhere was a random English lesson, boring IT lesson with DuLally (Mr Lally) and to add to that a highly amusing Maths test!
Back to Chris, in the morning Chris got a pass to leave the school whenever he wanted because the person he battered aparently is known to have friends with knives to, fair enough!
Another opportunity to get a mac has arrived as well, we’ll see what happens in weekend and I’m sure to add it on the Weekend blog!
p.s Selection 52 is now available!!!

Ben

http://rkukonline.ds4a.com

Blog Thursday 1st May 2008

Today I started the day off with passing an IT test, WAHOO!!! But trust me that is not the end of that! Keep reading cos theirs alot to come! Games today was probably the most epic games lesson you can get, we hadn’t even got changed and it all started to kick off, Dom (I just call him a small fat basterd) was upto his old tricks been annoying and he came across Chris, he threw a cone at him and missed Chris, Chris said “whats the point” and Dom just laughed! Then he did what I would say was a big mistake, he threw it again at Chris and hit, and what happened next, trust me, no one saw coming! Chris picked up the cone walked upto Dom and started wacking him over the head with the cone repetadly, then got him in a head lock while punching him and took him down onto the floor near the benches and walked off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After that everyone was shocked and started cheering at Chris whilst Dom had a little tear in his eye (HA HAA!) So Chris didn’t do games as sir wanted him to calm down, next time I saw Chris was ten mins later to get our finger-print, he seemed OK now! But the rest of the day was just perthetic, everyone was hanging round Chris going “come on Chris” and he just shrug his shoulders and did his hair!
Don’t know whats gonna come of it all now, but tomorrow will tell!
Also, I’d love to know wheir Ste dissapeared off to, he was here in the morning then wasn’t in the afternoon, well like with Chris tomorrow will tell!

Ben

http://rkukonline.ds4a.com

Girls – My Regrets – Blew It!

>First Chance, Second Chance etc Blew It
Yep, anyone who knows me knows who I’m talking about, the princess that is Mary!!! The first time I realised I loved Mary wasn’t actually when we first met, we met because of Richard and we were hanging around at break and dinnertime and my love for her just grew. My biggest mistake was probably telling Richard before her, Richard was quite a close friend to her and I later found out he’d told her about my crush! Then it all began. She was lovin it, but the bad thing was, when she found out I loved her she wanted less to do with me. Richard made everything go from bad to worst when he gave me a photo of Mary and told her, it was quite hilarious when a teacher found out and was giving me advise on relationships, a 54yr old single teacher!

>Summary
I’ve completly blew more chances of been with Mary and I’ve missed out alot in this blog as it would fill more than the allowed space, the truth is I still love Mary and will never stop, thats how it goes.

Ben

http://rkukonline.ds4a.com

Blog Monday 28th April 2008

Today was like most Mondays really, until I.T when I upset a technician by launching my own web browser through their computers, for some reason he seemed offended, typical technician, he didn’t even know how it was made, heh, the shame! Meanwhile nothing much, speaking of the browser, you can download the browser for free for wide-screen and non-wide screen computers check it out!
As much as I would like to say amazing things happened today and I finally got a girlfriend who is soooo sexxy ……………. but no! Sorry

Ben

http://rkukonline.ds4a.com

This song explains my love life in a nut shell, its like the songs talking to me!

From the shelter of your home
As you walk into the rain
Send a message that you know she’ll hear
Though she’s far away
Even though you have been wrong before
She’ll hear you now
You know she will
But you don’t know how

From the shelter of the rain
As you walk into the Tube
As you think of how you wonder if
She thinks about you too
Even though you’ve waited so long
To see the day
When she will turn
To you again
‘So long my friend’
Is what you’ll say

And I don’t know
Why you feel so bad
Where is the life you once had?
And still this horrid feeling grows and grows
The way you want it to

Even though you’ve waited so long
To see the day
When she will turn
To you again
‘So long my friend’
Is what you’ll say

And I don’t know
Why you feel so bad
Where is the life you once had?
And still this horrid feeling grows and grows
The way you want it to

You’re a fool though
Why you feel so bad
Where is the life you once had?
And stilll this hollow feeling grows and grows
The way you want it to